-Friday, February 29, 2008

Was late today... got counsel by my manager and my trainer complained to my branch manager i was sleeping in the class... omg. Today attached 1 day at the branch.

Just recieved news yeater dat my father older bro committed sucide. Went to his funeral just now after work.Seeing my grandmother cried, i almost cant control myself but i still keep my cool. Went to some distance and smoke to stablise my emtion. I can forseen this year is not a good year for me, my eyes, my family, my work and even my frens.... and some other things. But all this who knows? I have to take all these beating myself. By typing all this, i dun need anyone symapthy or pity or gain attention. What u all wanna think is what... even the Qin Emperor cant change the way of how people thinks.....

Global warming is on the rise, there will be more floods and more drought.... its so global that it even hits here....

Tml will be back to tanjong pagar for training. Hope my emtion will be stablise.

-=][ Island Closest to Hell ][=-

-Thursday, February 28, 2008

Went to hospital check out my eyes... doc says its allegic to something.. i dun know... too chim. After seeing doc, take cab home and instilled the eye drop and medicine.

Went to East Point meet liang then proceed to Suntec city. Went to carefour and saw the wooden chair again.o.0 Take a pic with Godmum at the chair at the excat location at the excat seat. Then proceed to millenium walk and bought 2 donouts for godmum and myself. Went to a optic shop and make my self a pair of spec. Took a few more cam whore pic but no time to upload le.

Went to liang house for a while then he ride me home and slack. Slack till now...

Something caught in my mind today...
After dinner, the son and the father went to living room watch TV. The mother and daughter was washing plates and suddenly there was a plate crashing on the floor. There was a moment of silence. The son said: "Its must be mother who break it" The father ask: "How do you know"

He replied : "Cause there was no screaming and scoldings"


We often too used to judge others based on our usual assumption, making ourself looks correct and righteous.

-=][ December Affinity ][=-

-Wednesday, February 27, 2008

training as usual; kinda open up a bit. Lesson was a bit hard today. All people keep asking me question, but replied yes and no like a block of wood. Guess they don't really to dare to talk to be ba, i'm too cold on the outside.

Reach home, knock to my keyboard while putting my things and i found something which brighten my day up, My n80 MEM card!!!!This mem card was so pricelss to me even though its a default 128mb only.

Went to Centerpoint meet liang again. Met some of my ex college at robinson. Do some catching up and slack again. Went back to liang house to do his pc for him... , practise some jay's song and seeing his MTV.

Tml or rather later go to sees eye specialist again. Hope eveything will be all right... my red eye condition had not improving yet... scared dunno what happen to me.

Hope everything turns out fine.

-=][ December Affinity ][=-

-Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Went training as usual... but today kinda lame. Lesson bores me. From the first day i attend the lesson, i have slept in the class without getting caught. Today, i think i influenced the 2 gers beside me... went to slp in class with me!!! OMG.... they are getting worst. At first tought they hardworking de... lolx. In the end, kena caught by the teacher and kena scolded... lolx... but i still drift myself off to sleep... lolx.

Went SK meet Godmum and liang. Went to rivermall plaza to slack.Talk about lots of things and keep telling me things which is true to me yet so hurt to me... i understand their intention.

Maybe i getting an R6 or R1 bike... was considering it... Singapore road how can ride so fast -;-. ... too lazy go JB too...unless with a group of my Class 2 frens buddy.Super 4 spec III will do le ba i guess. If i take R6, i would have the tempation to practise and perfect my corner. Been such a long time since i do a solid cornering. Been considering getting a car, but need more money mangement. Bike is still my passion and hobby. Meanwhile, i just lun and take my personal chuffer BMW ba. Bus Mrt Walk. =D

Time to turn in.ZZzzzzzz

-=][ December Chopin ][=-

-Monday, February 25, 2008

SAT

Went to meet liang, then proceed with his fren to shenton way KTV to sing. LOL, my training place was just opposite KTV only. Didnt really sing much, just sing a few lines b4 passing the mic to the other people. No really in a mood to sing ba. Finally they cannot tarhan, the final song ask me to sing solo.... dunno is a coincidence or wat, its jay's song again... bu neng shou de mi mi. Neverthless, i sing solo the whole song piece finished and they give me a clap... guess too lousy le ba, was encouraging me.. hiaz.

Just got back my nokia N80. Cost me 80 bucks on the repair. Secondary camera needed a repair, headset needed a repair and LCD too. Luckily know some frens in nokia shop, so they discounted me. Can take pic again...but who will take with me?


Sun

Wake up ard 12. Slack till 6pm before meeting liang and his whole group of fren for indoor soccer. I'm not a fan for soccer and dunno how to kick soccer. Just anyhow kick de... hiaz. We book 4 hours court. Each hour cost 80 dollars. o.0 pocket burn hole... played till midnite,

Went chomp chomp to eat till now. Tired. I must conquer my past in order to commands the future. Look forward in life.

He who control the past commands the future. He who commands the future conquers the past.

-=][ December Affinity ][=-

-Saturday, February 23, 2008

Training on as usual.... was keeping the cool style of myself, yet they are just some never give up ppl wanna talk to me.... which is good, cause class was bored, guess they were bored, no chicoe tok to me.. LOL.

Collected waste paper for the whole class, some i didnt collect, all echo i not gentlemen, cause only 3 guys in class, the rest are gers... problem is dat my hands are full liao lor... kns.... sian 1/2.

Went back home, eat dinner, slp till 9. Wake up and liang come find me.. slack till now. Was discussing about forex using our system.

Time to slp. Hope tml will be a better day again.

-=][ December Affinity ][=-

-Friday, February 22, 2008

Just become a joker in training today... we got a system that can send MASS msg to all the computers. The trainer told us how to use this feature...then all ppl begin mass flooding while i thinking of what to msg... I msg all the ppl saying "the world is coming to an end" and the timing is so accurate that when i send all, the trainer says :"dun abuse this system; its intended for ugent and emergency use only"... Then the whole class was like LOL.....

Went back home, meet my Godmum and liang.. slack ard 1130 b4 we went sperate ways. Bought 6 donuts to eat for breakfast. ^^

He who deeply loves someone have the strength; He who got loved deeply by someone have the courage.

-=][December Affinity][=-

-Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Training end a bit earlier today. Reach back home. House is empty again. Go cofy shop buy things eat, smoke and think.

Went back home online a while, blog the same old stuff.

Now going offline. Backon Control ; Terminated...........

System offLine.

-=][ December Affinity ][=-


Went to training as usual.. lesson kinda boring. The only thing that kept me awake is break.. lolx.
Went to lunch to a busy hawker center..... and was like wow, the whole place was jammed like sardine. People mountain people sea. Saw the Tissue paper culture over there too. ^^

What the heck is tissue paper culture? Its about putting packets of tissue paper to reserve your seats while leaving the place unattended despite being so crowd... dats y ppl wont sit the empty seat cause they know its reserved. :P

Went back home and slack. Meet liang and went Giant to shop.... soo loong never shop le... wanted to change my hanger to all standard wodden classics one... but each hanger cost 1.30. I need a lot of hanger for dat!! :( In the end, i lun, never buy. We go buy sushi ard 1150pm sharp cause was discounted and bought a drink. This trigger my past memories. =(

Went my house to slack till ard 1am and he ride home. Tml will be a better day i hope.

-=][Enchanted Affinity][=-

-Monday, February 18, 2008

Went to training as usual... come back home... go Tampines mall Times book store and bought a book by George S.Clason . Come back home feeling tired....


I know that my behavior was very painful to u. I don't ever want to do that again. I let you down by making the same mistake again. What would it take for you to began to rebuild your trust in me?

The longer i wait, the more fustrated i become? What had become of me this few days?

Will be waiting for your sms for an answer, guess i wont be disturbing u in the future....
Good luck for your sch appli.

-=][ Enchanted Affinity ][=-


Today
Meet Godmum and slack ard at SK, went home.. nothing much.

YESTER
Reaching out....





Yi Lu Xiang Bei
Fa Ru Xue

The Longest Movie Bu Neng Shou de mi mi

I remember that i promise not to let u cry and be hurt again, i promise i will protect you, yet i hurt u again. I dun dare to ask for your forgiveness again. I just wanted another chance. Is that so hard? -=][Enchanted Affinity][=-

-Friday, February 15, 2008

Can i ever be forgiven?

-Tuesday, February 12, 2008

I have met countless of people in my lives and yet only 1 managed to decieve me. There's no need any explaination or whatever. Anyway, i just face the music today. I have known who truly loves me. Lesson learn in a hard way. This will be the last post to ereased any memories from me. Never ever play love with a Sagittarian.

The death of this blog commerence the rebirth of my love between Emily and Me.


¤(¯`·.¤(¯`·.¤L i a n g h e ∂ r t s E m i l y¤.·´¯) ¤.·´¯)¤

-=][Spiritual Affinity][=-

-Monday, February 11, 2008

YESTERDAY (Sat)

Went to tampines ard evening walk ard after that went to fren house gamble till 7am... omg... play majong and blackjack...my MJ skills not good so had to pay "school fees"... lolx... in the end in 1 nite overall with blackjack and MJ i won $1 . Wat a nite!!!

TODAY (sunday)

Woke up quite late considering the fact i slp at 8am? woke up ard 2 ba... prepare myself and as usual go gambling den again... play till midnight cause tml needa work. Watch a DVD movie call "goal"... rather an inspirational movie. About a guy who fight against all odds to realise his dreams.

if u have any problem, care to share it me?

-=][Broken Affinity][=-

-Saturday, February 9, 2008

Went to party to sing but didnt sing much today... cause no jay's new song... no mood to sings too. Today i simply can "la" to high tune, dun know why also... maybe too long never sing to a person who is willing to listen to me =(

Went to my fren office to gamble...., but today luckily me not dealer. I'm a player today.. me and liang cup together and won only a bit.. considering the fact that the dealer luck was extremely good, but using our money mangement and strat we managed to win a bit while all other player lost like no tomorrow? hiaz

Just went home now and later 7am need to wake up and work at the bank facing those customer again....

Do let me know if you are feeling better........

ru gou yao zao, jiu qin ni qi de wo,
ru gou nan gou, jiu qin de wang le wo.......

-=][Broken Affinity][=-

-Friday, February 8, 2008

Happy chinese new year everyone! Went to grandmother house to celebrate chinese new year. Eat then gamble a bit.... and win a bit of money despite luck wasnt so good...

Is she getting colder towards me? Her feelings for me maybe fade into thin light... Feels so isoloated and lost, will try to get myself and forget all these things, it maybe quite hard but i believe i will overcome it. Maybe i shouldnt start in the first place knowing there will be such a outcome. This had been affecting my work, my life and every little things i do. Going to SK reminds me of her, going to Giant, suntec, parkway,bugis and even expo. Even walking the escalator reminds me. thinking of some of the dialogs we spoke also...hiaz, I think i'm going to get crazy with all those fond yet short memories.

Maybe i'm too sensitive liao... she too busy liao maybe. Its time to move on i guess....

-=][broken affinity][=-

-Thursday, February 7, 2008

First of all, a very happy chinese new year to u all.

Today was a quiet day at the bank as the people were preparing for their reu dinner ba.

Went back home, eat dnner with my family, then go to seng house eat again... -;-" eat till v full liao... hiaz. Seng decide to play black jack and was deciding who is the dealer.... in the end i become the dealer. -;-". Was losing money and the player were seeing me as God of fortune... decided to step down as dealer when cash was running low, but my fren liang decided to cup with me to be a dealer. So we share money and we both become dealers. Arrghh.... we were losing like no tomorrow when our money was at only $4 plus in our lowest point. However, as we play along, our luck thrend change and from $4 increase till $100 plus.. it was like wow.... our luck was extremly good in late games and won everybody till they give up. :( kinda bad. =(

Went home and online... yet nobody pm me in msn... hiaz.

Late again... time to turn in

Trying very hard to be cold and emoless machine in progress before i get extreme hurt again.

-=][ Broken Affinity ][=-

-Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Just change to a song which kinds of suits me.... This song keep huanting back to my mind despite trying v hard to forget...... just wanted to share with u all guys... dun bother to listen if you guys are not interested... just hiy "X" the button on the top right corner.

First we touched and we hurt each other
Then we tear our hearts apart
We are too close, and I can feel the pain

Fill my empty heart.

Is this pain too much for me?
Can I stay the same?
When this pain consumes my heart
Will I be able to hold onto my soul?

Kindness is something I don't want or need
The sunshine would just desolve me into light
Give me a pain as pleasing as your sigh
So I can feel you all the day and night
And keep me from fading away

Even when we behold each other
Somehow our eyes do not meet
And when you hold me in your strong embrace
Still I feel no heat

But it gives me such delight
To feel you closer now
I know I am true to myself
Though it cuts deep into my heart sometimes

Kindness is something I don't want or need
The sunshine would just desolve me into light
Give me a pain as pleasing as your sigh
So I can feel you all the day and night
And keep me from fading away

Kindness is something I don't want or need
The sunshine would just desolve me into light
Give me a pain as pleasing as your sigh
So I can feel you all the day and night
And keep me from fading away............


Its 2am.... feeling so down. I'm not a person whom can really expres my feeling out.....
HP TODAY spoil.... hahah same plight as my ger... all my contact are LOST. hiaz. Sry to those who sms me today.. couldnt reply u allz.

Went to find ger at work, but she had to go her fren hse... in the end had to go home by myself.... feeling kinda sad and empty. Went home alone. Actually bought a Hello Panda and wanted to eat with her in MRT but no chance.... but its ok. All the while waiting for a single sms from her but no avalib... its ok again. MRT all the way to tamp and went home... dun feels like online.

Perherps she is happi with other people around her, i just a nothing, or maybe i put too much effort in a person i loves, and yup, i dun expect anything in return but i wish anything that can brighten me up will do.

Its time for me move on and tried to forget all those unhappy things ba.. later going to work again... My flesh maybe at my work place....but my soul keeps wondering ard?

Its getting late, time to turn in.
-=[B]roken Affinit[y]=-

Love is the flower of life, and blossoms unexpectedlyand without law, and must be plucked where it is found,and enjoyed for the brief hour of its duration

-Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Today whole day do nothing. Realise the world had past by me so fast in a day. went to tamp inter look for godmum and eat dinner with her. go back home and sleep liao. tml will be a new working day for me.

Went back home feeling lost.... does she grew tired of me liao? I dun wish to know and i dun wanna to know.. sometimes if i probe too much, it makes me like a very troublesome and busybody people.... should i let go once and for all and be alone and free ?

For all this thingy, i dun wanna think soo much liao... let affinity decide us ba. I'm not a rich/yandao/romantic/(or any positive attributes u can describe a bf) person.

The most beautiful thing on Earth is the preservation of ever lasting truthfulness.


¤(¯`·.¤(¯`·.¤B o i h e ∂ r t s G e r¤.·´¯) ¤.·´¯)¤
¤(¯`·.¤(¯`·.¤E n c h a n t e d ∂ f f i n i t y¤.·´¯) ¤.·´¯)¤

-Sunday, February 3, 2008

-Saturday, February 2, 2008

today another average day at the bank... last minute got meeting till 8pm. hiaz..sianz...

went back home and slp... wake up realise i didnt recieve any sms from HER. feeling kinda sad.

If you never step out, you would still remain at the same place.

-=][ enchanted affinity ][=-

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